Not sure how

I can’t stop thinking about your txt,
And how you need more distance to love me less,
And yet every time we’re close,
My desire burns intense,
I am torn and tight inside,

I’m not racked with guilt or regret,
Every moment we shared I have meant,
What I learnt from you built my strength,
I want to give you sterkte back.
Really not sure how to tackle that?

Be your friend?
Leave the contract?
Cook you a great meal?
Or have no contact?
Talk all night would you like that?

You are right, I put myself here,
You were there in the beginning,
Of my ending, us winning and seemingly losing.
I have not lost but gained and need to give back,
You are very special to me never want to lose that.

Just not sure how...