Everlasting Lover

Oh my dear friend,
you and your weekend,
What am I to do?
How can I pretend?
I know it’s not easy for you,
neither is it for me!
We both need to fix what we got!
and if that doesn’t work,
it needn't to be our lot,
We have the power and destiny,
To get from life where we want to be,
I said, "you will not be the reason",
And if this thing doesn’t work,
That will be how it has been,
and if you are in a similar space,
believe me I will come and find you!
I need to go through the motions,
To at least have tried,
I owe her the golden ticket,
I'm not just in it for the ride,
And it will be a two way thing.
but if at the end of the day,
And it does not work out,
And we both miss each other,
I know you won't hang around,
and you shouldn't wait for me,
but if you are with another,
I know I will have loved you,
for the moments we had were true,
and if by a miracle our paths do connect,
be assured we will be together,
and our lost time we won't regret.
you are my everlasting lover.
You know I've had no other!!!
xx

Please understand

Yes I thought you might find them,
No, I wasn't expecting so quickly,
but If you truly understand,
you would know in what pain I am then.
I shared with you and no other,
and please put your friend hat on,
You said to expect her to fight,
And she is understanding her plight,
she says she truly loves me and
I don't think I've guided her,
twenty years is a long time to let go.
I felt so lonely in the last week,
And I don't know how long I could
survive on my own.
please understand...............